randomrachel

I am soooooooo happy with my results from this month alone! i’ve lost a total of 8 inches in 20 days! i want to fit in an xl swimsuit by the summer and not just one of those plain one pieces, i want the cut out one piece. that shows the sides and back, hawt. also by december i want to get the tattoo that i have been waiting years to get but never got it because of my weight. i didnt want the tattoo to get all saggy that soon! also, i wanted to prove myself that this year i mean business and that i can do it!

I’VE LOST 6 1/2 INCHES ALL OVER SINCE NOVEMBER!

WAY EXCITED FOR THE SUMMER

i did great at thanksgiving…. and have done horible so far…. but i know that the day isnt over yet… and i have time to make better decisions…

yesturday… i tried a cinnabon…. those are the most disgusting things EVER. not even worth the calories…. eh… at least someone else bought it for me… ewwwwwwww :p

I find it weird that I have been writing here almost everyday. I think the support of just those lil comments has helped alot. Its made me think if they can do it I can do it. I’m going to start my food journal and then just enter it on here every week or so. So that everyone else can see what i have been eating. I havent weighted myself in a long time…. long time as in  a month! i dont own one so i go to stores and peoples houses that i know to weight myself. lol. anyways, im proud of myself for what i have achieved and that im taking the steps to becoming a better me phyiscally.

I put a new pic up from today… and then my display pic is one from 2 weeks ago..

could it be?

why i crave these foods that are soooo bad for me, and why i crave food when i sleep and when im eating! i really dont understand how and why i think about food 24/7. is it an obsession? or am i stressing about food too much and just decide fuck it and eat whatever.. i really dont know what my problem is and it bothers me…. alot….. and it makes me think that i cant do it… no matter how much i want to be healthy before i have kids…. no matter how much i want to be healthy in general… no matter how much i dont wannna think.. .can i fit in that seat… or will i be able to shop in normal stores….. i really cant think straight…

In this last month or so…. i havent really lost weight…. i’ve lost 3 1/2 inches tho all over. It was nice to know that i am gaining muscles and not really gaining any fat… so…. thanksgiving was successful. it was the least i have ever.. i mean ever ate at thanksgiving. ususally i get 2nds or 3rds and that wasnt the case this year. i had one plate and it wasnt even a full plate! I’m proud of myself for having a better thanksgiving. Now comes the exercise, which hasnt really been something ive been doing. ive been walking every once in awhile but nothing consistant. yesturday tho it snowed alot.. which is… 6 inches. we walked up the hill to a park and then walked back the long way. We as in my boyfriend and i.  so i hope that i can get into exercising a lot more. thats all for now… buh bye

I have felt like crap alllll day today. I was all nervous today about my new lifestyle, and if I was going to eat too much or if I wasn’t going to eat enough. Talk about migraine. I also started talking a multi vitamin and my daily dose of iron, vomit… not quite, but almost. I think tommrow will be a better day. I have to work on changing my carb intake to more fiber. I haven’t exercised yet, but I will. 30 to 40 min walk! If I want to be healthy I’m gonna have to work for it!

Food Log

I’ve finally decided to lose weight. Not like this isnt my first attempt, but this is my second real attempt to change my life physically. I’ve been taking steps to relove myself and everything around me. The last step is weight loss.

When I think of weight loss, it’s not something I like to think about. I just want it to all disapear. I want the thought that I’m not to big to do anything.  I feel like I’m too big to go on a roller coaster, airplane, or in the mall. Because I feel that way I hate going to those places. I want to be able to go anywhere and do anything without the worry of will I fit.

So, I’m here just to get my thoughts out and fustrations with the hope of having some support. I have support from my friends because they want to be healthy and want me to be too. 

Let’s begin with where I have started to where I’m at now.

2 years ago I was almost 400 lbs. For someone being 5′9”, 400 lbs is gonna take a toll on your body. I knew it was time for change, and to be the person I want to be. I did the little steps to get me on track for some weight loss. I got a personal trainer and started a new diet, or new way of eating to fit the new me.

I am now 300 lbs. I’m back down to the pant size and dress size I was in high school. Which was my goal 2 years ago. I have prasied myself for losing the weight and my friends have been there for me. I’m mentally the person I always wanted to be, but I feel like physically this is not what I want to look like. I look in the mirror and see a healthier and thinner me. But in real life I see someone that is overweight and not happy. I want that mirror image to be me.

Everyday I have decided that I’m going to write here a food log. So, I know what I’m eating and so that someone else can see how and/or what I’m doing.

So…. here it goes….

Food Log

Exercise Log